You are not alone in your suffering

Sunday morning at church Hannah did an interpretive dance to Cry out to Jesus by Third Day, and it was amazing. Not only is she so beautiful but she did a great job, (I am so proud of her:) and the song and dance together was powerful; it had me in tears by the end of the first stanza. I fought them back the whole time as my ribs shook and my throat burned. It’s hard enough to think about my own pain, let alone all the people around me that are suffering too. I know often I get caught up in my own hurt and forget about the other, possibly bigger things people close to me may be going through. Although we all hurt in very different ways, there is one common thread that can heal and bring us together. He’ll meet you where ever you are.

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
He’ll meet you wherever you are

“Cry Out To Jesus”

To everyone who’s lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there’s nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He’ll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that’s struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They’ve done all they can to make it right again
Still it’s not enough

For the ones who can’t break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you’re not alone in your shame
And your suffering

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus

To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight



Lap Top...Lap Dog...

Lap Top...Lap Dog...

Ok so I am having hard time pulling myself off the couch today. It doesn’t help that Palin has not moved since I sat down. She is for sure the definition of a lap dog and refuses to rest anywhere else. I did just go out the front door, however, to see if it was still raining…. and it is….. which means, no running, at least not this afternoon.  I am still sore from soccer on Sunday (my first outdoor practice since spring) so I am needing some cardio to loosen up.

I guess since i am starting this new blog about the regular/normal (not so theological) parts of my life, I guess i can catch you all up…

School: I am in my third semester of my Masters program at Lincoln Memorial University. And after this semester, three to go! Next semester I will be student teaching and the semester after that I will either be teaching full time or nannying while I finish my last semester.I am really excited to finally have my own classroom and teach full time.

Work: I am still nannying right now even though it is very laid back since both kids are in school. There are a riot sometimes and a pain in the neck most of the others. Parents, please discipline your children. And when you make a rule or give a punishment STICK TO IT.
Be nosy. These are your kids!! Someone needs to take care of them. And yes, it IS your business to be in their business.

Faith: God is teaching me a lot, reminding me of the many things I forget over and over about trusting Him, leaning on Him and Him alone for my strength and security. He is all I got. I love my church and my family there. The young women have started a small group. So far it is fantastic and many of them are learning what a big difference prayer can make in the life of a believer. I think big things are going to happen in this group and I am very excited! I think many Christians are in the same boat when it comes to their daily life with God. We know we love him but daily can’t get up (or sit down) and make time for Him. How does that make us look to him? How do you think that makes him feel? If I were in a relationship with someone and they didn’t make time for me everyday in one way or another, I would be crushed.

Speaking of relationships… I don’t really know what to say about that…I’m hoping for the best. And i know with God in control I will get it. I know God knows what he is doing but I can’t help but be discouraged and confused.
Please just pray for me. Pray for me and pray for him. It is really out of my hands now and I need to give him over to God daily. Pray God moves him while he is away and I remain patient and strong.
Love you all! Whoever finds this anyways :)

Take a hike

I was hiking today with Dad and Aaron and the trail was pretty difficult. It was uphill a lot of the time (or up-rock rather). We were climbing rocks and hopping from one to the other most of the way in and out. It was taking a lot of concentration to say the least and Dad said something about how it was so intense he was concentrating so hard on not tripping he didn’t even have time to day dream.

That’s one thing that is really good about hiking. You can get a lot of thinking done. Even when you are with a person as talkative as me there is still plenty of time to think and reflect.

After dad said that I got to thinking about how much I think… I was actually thinking at that time about lots of stuff despite the hefty incline. I kinda hear that a lot about myself, I think a lot…

Even the other night I was out with friends listening to music and just relaxing outside and I said something I suppose was “deep” for a night out and my friend said something like I was constantly thinking deep and she didn’t know how I did it. She said, “I am just sitting here thinking about what I have to do tomorrow and you are thinking about good and evil and how to better the world or something!”

I admit, I do think about these kinds of things often. How people are being deceived by the world, the devil, their peers…and it saddens me and I want to help them… sometimes it is mind boggling and discouraging. But this is often what I think of. I told my dad she said that and he said that was abnormal this day and age but from the looks of what he could tell about me, I had trained my mind to think about such things. I have been taught since a child to take every thought captive. I try not to dwell on things I deem inappropriate (or God says is) and when they come up I normally exit them out and think about godly things or why I was even thinking that or if I am thinking that what is this other person thinking… lol crazy I know… but then I get back to God and how He is the best for everything… Yes, this takes a lifetime of training… as in I am still training myself daily for sure.

Sometimes I think about how people don’t like to think. I often ask people what they are thinking and get an “I don’t know” or “nothing” or “can’t say” as the answer….

To me that is nearly impossible. But I am not saying it is that way for everyone.

I do think in some circumstances it is a choice. I know many people that cannot drive, clean, eat, exercise or even sleep without noise. People that CANNOT sleep without the TV on!! and many more than that prefer to have it on to help them sleep, claiming, without the TV their thoughts keep them awake.

Well maybe they are keeping us awake for a reason?

Maybe we should think them?

Think them through

Are we afraid of what we are thinking? What we might have to deal with?

Why don’t we just think it, write it down, reflect on it and when possible, solve it?

How long can we suppress these thoughts or feelings and hide them with TV, sounds and “I don’t knows”?

Are we afraid to be alone with our thoughts?

Perhaps Americans insistence on sound is indeed a symptom of our stubborn refusal to think.

I think it is very important to have a time of reflection. Call it what you want: prayer, meditation, blogging, etc… these are all ways to get what has been on your mind today OUT. Get it online, on paper, give it to God in prayer or give it to a friend. Keeping it to your self will never help. It will just stay there… haunting you…

Reflection, writing, planning— all those things can HELP YOU.

Many people lay awake at night planning for tomorrow. Grab a pen and write it down. Then you won’t worry about forgetting and you can add to it when you wake up if you need to. I know that sounds simple but it gets deeper…

If we/you don’t take time to reflect or THINK about your day, your life, your agenda, your goals…

How will you ever improve?

How will you ever solve or let God solve any of your problems?

It seems very important to be able to look at your day and say, “How can I do this better tomorrow?”

How can I be a better person or better to someone, tomorrow?

Think about it

I dare you.